A Quick Update...

Just wanted to drop a line or two and let you guys know that i'm still here. I'm just super busy, but it's a good thing this time.I get the most most emails when I write personal stuff and the infamous Locked and Loaded posts. So i'm gonna do a "semi locked and loaded" post right quick. Just to tide you over until I get all this stuff where it needs to be.So here you go.
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My hair has gotten way too long to deal with. Im trying really hard not to wack it all off. 


I have drank enough wine in the last week to completely destroy whats left of my liver...and yours. And i'm on my way to get more right now. 


Where can a sister get a decent soul food dinner around  here? I mean, is it really THAT hard to add salt to the flour BEFORE you put  the chicken in it? 


Just found out I get a 50% discount at Karmaloop.com! FOREVER!  Jesus take the magentic stripe off my credit card...


Why does Itunes hate so hard on PC users? They are really messing with my sanity right now. 


This no car note thing. I could totally get used to this. 


Packing sucks.


Moving sucks.


Being able to behold God all around you while standing out on your balcony, does NOT suck. 


Once you've had Verizon, every other cell phone carrier sucks. Period.


Last night my ex-husband proved, once again, that he is nothing more than a gigantic asshole and a glorified babysitter. 


My son is hilarious. I mean like Bernie Mac type of funny. He  gets it from his momma (in my Juvie the great voice)


The wine just kicked in...


I See ya Looking 


* That Damn Star*( is a cold piece of work)

I'm Know I haven't posted anything substatial in while, but I have been overwhelmed yet again. I promise to get back on my blog grind...AS SOON AS I GET SETTLED IN CALIFORNIA!!!!!!!!!!!! 
YES, YES, YES, YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*TWINKLE TWINKLE LITTLE STAR*
BOOM!

Excuse me, but what did you just say?

BLANK.EFFING.STARE...
*BLINK BLINK*
*DIES*
(found @ youknowyoudeadazzwrong.com)


*Here lies Star*

I Told You These Rednecks Waz Gonna Clown.../WTF News...

A few weeks ago I did a post about the vandalism of the inclusion billboards that the MGLCC (Memphis Gay and Lesbian Center) had put up for National Coming Out Day. Following that incident there was a scheduled rally in support of the center and what they where trying to do. I stated that if they thought these dumb mo-mo's around here where just going to let go and let God, then they had another thing coming. I have been proven correct. Follow this link and watch the video.


MAN ACCUSED OF ATTEMPTED ARSON AT MEMPHIS GAY AND LESBIAN COMMUNITY CENTER

http://www.wmctv.com/global/category.asp?c=151146&clipId=&topVideoCatNo=15040&topVideoCatNoB=105461&topVideoCatNoC=117912&topVideoCatNoD=169582&topVideoCatNoE=106890&autoStart=true&topVideoCatNo=default&clipId=4293707&flvUri=&thirdpartymrssurl=

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These ignant (yes, ignant) momo's make me ill...


*STAR*

*Rolls Eyes*

Sometimes I really think things are put in front of me STRICTLY because people want to see what I'm going to do with them. It was my sincere intention NOT to even watch the above videos when they where first brought to my attention on Twitter. Unfortunately, I was kinda hustled into watching  them anyway.

*Le sigh*

Who you think you gaming?
We dont believe you, you need more people.
This mess is dancing on that special nerve I save just for my mother.

As I have stated before, I don't dig religion. I am spiritual, I am a believer, but organized religion, um No Beuno. A cult is a cult. Just because your cult gets tax exempt status, that doesn't change what it is. The thing that probably bothers me the absolute most about the whole thing is the manner in which he is speaking. So matter-of-factly, as though its just a fact.I am so sick of talking about, thinking about, explaining my sexuality in relation to my relationship with God. I am so sick of being told (by people like me , no less) that I am less than a child of God, because my body isn't attracted to a man. I am so past being belittled in the name of the bible. The same bible that has been re-interpreted, misquoted, misread, chopped, AND screwed more times than a Mike Jones mixtape. I.AM.DONE. I hope that my annoyance and frustration is being conveyed through this post. How in the HELL does the one who has rocks thrown at him, become the thrower? Why is this mob mentality OK. Why is it so intense? Why can't there be enough sense in the room for us to see what's reality of whats going on?
WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY?? This is so horrible. This man is standing in a pulpit, at a church convention, in my hometown (yay, to Memphis for more BS) "preaching" lies and  hate.You know what, im getting too emotional doing this post. Im not even going to finish it....

*Star*

Speak a Piece...

Those who don't do---teach
Those who don't believe---preach
So I would much rather seek
God through you
Confess my imperfection to you
So at least when our conversations are through
I wasn't bewitched with theological bullshit
from well dressed hustlers standing in the pulpit
I say to them game recognize game
Christ said church is where two or more are assembled in my name
and when i am with you
God is with me
and when i am inside you
God becomes we
And heaven and hell have no division
so in tuned that we no longer make love
we make religion

By: Six
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The things that be in my inbox.... whoo chyle....

*STAAARR*

I'll SLAP FIRE FROM YO MOUTH!!!!!!!!!!

Disclaimer: I usually don't condone ish like this, but this is BEYOND funny.

Bwaaaaahahahahaaaahahahaaa lollolllolollolol......



All I could think about watching this video is my home girl Dred in DC. Those of you who know her, whoo chyle, can you imagine??!! Somebody would end up missing some teeth!

*Le Twinkle*

Hustlin' Backwards: No Beuno

I follow some GREAT blogs. One of my absolute FAVS is absolutebrook.com Brook is a unique personality (at least she seems so from her blog, I don't know her personally). She speaks her mind. A lot of opinions are a slap in the face to conventional beliefs. Ususally she's on some " put the mirror in your face" type-a-stuff, which I just love! Anyhoo, she did a post on a topic that I had been wanting to write about for the last couple of weeks. SEX WITH THE EX. I wanted to do post on this, not because I'm planning on participating, but because sooooo many people do it and end up regretting it in the end. I have discovered in my , ahem, research, that in the LGBT community, we tend to "dip back in" on average around three times before we just walk away. Bad idea. Doing the horizontal mambo with someone that you broke up with a long time ago just confuses any type of future relationship you two may have been able to salvage. Getting it on with someone you JUST broke up with makes it almost impossible for you to really get over and move on from the situation. Especially if you two really had something. Especially if the sex is good. You will NEVER be able to let go of someone that you loved if you keep having sex with them. Lesbians are the worst at this. Women are such emotional creatures and we equate so many things with sex that make it much more than a physical thing. So if ever anyone who reads this takes a piece of advice from this little blog of mine, let it be this: DO NOT HAVE SEX WITH YOUR EX!!! DONT DO IT, BAD IDEA, RUUUUUNNNNNN!!


Consider the reasons that you are not with that person. Did they disrespect you, did you cheat on them, where they dishonest, abusive?  Whatever the reason is, it was strong enough and important enough to at least one of you to make you end the relationship. That should also translate into " you dont desearve this good good" either. P*ssy will never make anyone do anything for too long (except white men). No matter how good it is. Its a bonus, its an extra. People stay with folks that are terrible in bed ALL THE TIME. Don't confuse good sex with good treatment. If it ain't worth being with that person, then it damn sure ain't worth sleeping with that person. I'm just saying... 


Thats all.


*Star*

On to the next one...

NOW BEFORE I WRITE THIS, I MUST SAY SOMETHING...
All of my posts are not directly related to me. Even when I don't say so. Listen to the message, don't shoot the messenger.
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EVERYBODY'S RELATIONSHIP IS SHOT TO SH*T RIGHT NOW!!!
WTH? EVEN MY STRAIGHT FOLKS GOING THROUGH IT!!! IS THERE SOMETHING IN THE WATER? CAN'T BE THE SAME THING IN THE WATER IN TN, AL, CA, IL, AND GA?! CAN IT?



Come on people! How is it that everyone lost their minds at the same time? I have the Captain who's ex is still ACTING like they're in a relationship. Another one of my girls (who is married) is pregnant by some other random dude. One of my homies ex even went so far as to write up a fake lease to keep her out of her OWN damn apartment! AND another friend on the west coast, her girl actually went to the Laker game with her ex "cuz the tickets were free." Ummm, like them mofo's wasn't gonna have another 90 freaking games this season. Quit playing!!! Then my, ummm....well my swee...umm gir..my exxxx,  oh hell, I don't even know what to call her.

Every needs to go back their corners, wait for the bell to ring, and start the hell over again.


By the way, this technically qualifies as a"Locked and Loaded" post. In case ya'll hadn't noticed. 
*sips wine*
And Good Evening
*Starrrra*

Label Whores...

"If I didn't define myself for myself, I would be crunched into other people's fantasies of me and eaten alive."-Audre Lorde

"Nobody built like me, I designed myself." -Jay-Z

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Lesbian, Dyke, Homo, Bull-Dagger( thats my moms favorite). That's what I am to the straight world. Then there's Femme, Femme-Aggressive, Dominate Femme, Stem, Stud, and Soft Stud categories that I fall into on any given day depending on who i'm with or how i'm dressed. Im sure there's a  host of other labels that Im forgetting about here. And dont even get me started on the boys. That list could go on forever. 
For me, its not really that big of a ldeal to fit into a category, but for the world, if you cant be defined you can't be controlled and that's a problem. As a group of non-conformists, one would think that the LGBT community would recognize this and shy away form labeling ourselves. However, we have fallen right in step with the world.

Since the day I posted that I was single I have been getting these emails from people stating that they were a ____ year old, femme/stud/stud AG/stem/whatever, wondering if they might be my type and if we could connect. Firts of all, if you're "lurking" on my blog, I cant fool with you. This is a business. Period. Secondly, as I read these emails and noticed the patterns of how people were describing themselves, I thought how intersing it was that everyone felt the need to hang a tag over their head. Straight people don't introduce themselves that way. Have you ever had, or even heard of a dude stepping ot a female with this: 

"Hi im so-and-so, im a 29 year old medium build dude, brown skinned, and I wear locks in my hair to give the appearance that I'm taller and more enlightened than I really am."


Sidenote: If you really want to impress a mofo, introduce yourself by giving your full government name followed immediately by the number of children/baby mommas you have, tell what your 401K is looking like these days and give your FICO score.

OK. 
For the sake of this post I'll drop myself in a box and wrap it up in a cute little bow for ya'll. I am GROWN. I like strong women (well one strong women in particular, but we've been over THAT enough already). I got a MEAN shoe game and a SICK purse fetish (wut up GOTTI). I may have on Creative Rec's in the daytime and Botega's at night. I have lots of tattoos and will be getting more soon. Oh yeah, and im a great big Lezzie. Does that help? No? Awwww, too bad then

Chances are, if you follow or lurk on my blog you're either Gay, Gay friendly, a member of my family, one of my "sisters", or a member of my "army." Its just that simple. I think its a pretty safe assumption that if you're emailing me on some "can we connect ish", then you're just gay. No need for the meaningless descriptions that just confuse me more. One more time, just so we can be clear from here on out: I LIKE WOMEN (insert disclaimer...again). I don't necessarily care how you dress or how you get down in bed or any of that. I do care that you are comfortable enough in who you are to know that those silly little titles don't really mean anything. Some of you excluded yourself from the pool of applicants without even knowing it.

Ok thats all...


*Le Twinkle*