Locked and Loaded. (the sober edition)

I have decided not to move back to California. Its good to be wanted. I worked really hard. But I've done the West Coast, time to head in another direction.

It is truly hot as monkey nuts in Memphis right now. This shit is unreal. I'm outta here for at least a month. Shit.

New relationships are always interesting. Passion is great, but the true connection has to happen when everyone has all of their clothes on. Ask me how I know.

I HATE HATE HATE when lezzies break up with someone and all of a sudden try and act like the ex wasnt all that. Ol' girl was the hot nu nu when you where together, but now she's wack? Chyle please. My ex was a BEAST. Would I get with her ever again? Hell would have to freeze over 15 times. Make that 20.

Two people that are EXTREMELY important to me are now wanging each other. I have a mini panick attack whenver one of them calls me. Its funny...sometimes.

West Coast women are the party. East Cost women are the business.

 LOL

-Nik

A Little Observation....

Studs are some of the sneakiest, conniving, dumb little bitches ever to walk the face of Gods green earth. And I bet i'm not the only person who thinks this way. Men may be dogs, but studs are f*cking hyena's. Laughing all loud, always up to some creepy sneaky sh*t,  and always thinking everyone else is stupid. Studs are like a lower class, bottom feeding breed of man. 


Luckily, I dont have to put up with that ish anymore. 

*Star* 

Houston elected its first Gay Mayor. I am shocked, yet very excited. I do have the same worry for her as I do for President Obama, though. If Parker is not HUGELY successful, she will be viewed as a HUGE failure. It will all be dumped on the fact that she is a lesbian. And it will take another hundred years for people to stop caring about sleeping arrangements long enough to vote another LGBT candidate in that office, even if they do happen to be the best person for the job. I applaud Houston, however. Bravo. 

Today I Exhaled

I have been arguing with IMEEM for about a half hour trying to make a player for my blog and it just aint working. Now I'm locked and loaded and sick of listening to this sad ish.


Here's what I had on NON-STOP repeat today:


1.Gravity, John Mayer
2.No one in the World, Anita Baker
3.Stronger, Mary J.
4.Part of the List, Ne-yo
5.Why Does She Stay, Ne-yo
6.Fall, J. Holiday
7.Superhuman, Knock em'Down Brown and Skeri Hilson
8.I'm Gonna Find Another You, John Mayer
9.Epiphany, Chrisette Michelle
10.Been So Long, Anita Baker
This mess is enough to make you slit your damn wrists... Enough.


Then I got the call from that good 801 area code. Please believe I changed up my playlist with the quickness! First I turned off all the music and thanked God for the way he is moving in my life. Funny how one door abruptly slams in your face, then so many others open up.
Anyhoo...
I also cleaned my severely neglected house, submitted an article to I-Bleed-Ink.com  and spent some much need quality time doing ME. All in all, I think today was a good day. 


That's all.
*Star*
Oh yeah, much love and hugs to the captain for once again saying the simplest thing and making it all better. 

I just had the best meeting with a photographer friend of mine. He was so uplifting and hungry! I love it when people are not jaded by life or success or whatever. I remember when I was just starting out doing makeup. I had little support from my family and was learning everything on my own. I still sometimes feel that way now. There will never come a day when I am not trying to learn something. With or without the support of certain peole, I will continue. In this life, I am continuosly trying to be the best Nikki that I can be. That is something that only I can bring into reality. So no matter how hard others may work to keep me from believing and receiving, I will continue. My talents are just that, gifts from God. I will not waste them. Nor will I allow anyone to tell me that my talents are being wasted because of who I may love. So Im going to keep doing me and if that makes anyone mad, sad, or uncomfortable, well then that's just too damn bad. Don't ya love how I can relate any and everything back to me being gay? I know you do.

Stepping my game up

I am really into blogging. Have been for a long time. I just never took the time to sit down and do it like I should. Because of the fact that I truly belive in this particular blog and what it can be, I am going to give it the attention that it deserves. So understand that this little blog of mine is a work in progress. There is so very much more to come besides the typed ramblings of my mind! Right now i'm working on a couple of things to make the site more interactive and learning how to add more content. I'm hella excited, even if no one else is. Stay tuned fam, its definately gets greater later.

Side note- Thanks to the Captain, all the soldiers, the one with the beautiful voice, and the crowd on Friday for that blessing. It certainly wasn't my time to leave, but it is most certainly my time to shine, and that's exactly what I intend to do...